WORD Challenge = 15 pages edited/rewritten
Today I had “One of Those Days”. Last night, I opened Stolen and read a few chapters and thought it was terrible. Not the story, which I love, but my execution of it. Then I woke up and all day I thought, “My work sucks and I’ll never get published.”
An all-around crappy day.
Despite this, I exceeded my goal for the WORD Challenge out of simple dogged persistance. I refused to get up from my chair and walk away, I made myself muddle through even though I swore to myself that I was wasting my time. I think my mood comes from a combination of a head cold, lack of sleep, nerves from having so much of my work out there, and a natural fear that no editor or agent is ever going to want to buy or represent my work. 
Tomorrow, hopefully, I’ll be feeling better. I was really, really bummed with my own attitude today. For the first time since I started writing, I actually acknowledged to myself that I may never be published. It was a sad realization. Now, not to think that I’m just pitying myself, I also acknowledged that there was a pretty good chance that I would get pubbed eventually. So, suffice it to say, I’m just a bit off . 
A bit of brightness in an otherwise dreary day–I’m getting the hang of this left hand mouse business and my scoresheets came back from the Golden Opportunity. One of the judges gave me 249 out of 250 
and looking at the final list of scores, I discovered that I had the highest total overall out of all of the entries.
Here’s to hoping that tomorrow is a better day!
Ugh. I suffer from the same thing. Don’t worry, sweetie–we all go through it! Hugs!
on November 2nd, 2004 at 1:48 pm
on November 2nd, 2004 at 11:26 am
Sounds as if we’re all suffering from the same malady. Ellen wrote about the same type of thing last week. It’s likely the curse of the unpubbed and struggling author. Don’t let this get you down. And…a near perfect score in the Golden Opp. contest! How amazing is that
When you start to doubt, take out that scoresheet and read it.
on November 2nd, 2004 at 8:48 am
Were you me yesterday? About halfway thru my reread for DWD I got up and walked away, mumbling about ’suckage.’ I wrote anyway, but I hate when that happens.:twisted:
You hit it with the phrase “dogged persistance” it’s the key to anything.
We’ll all get there.
on November 2nd, 2004 at 6:59 am
((((Sweetie))))) Get some rest, take your vitamins and maybe a nap, too.
WTG on the 15 pages!
We all have down days but it sounds like yours was all over the map
. But we all have days we got back and look at our writing and discover we could have written it better–it’s a sign we’ve grown as a writer, I think.
Happy WORD’ing
Cece
on November 2nd, 2004 at 6:52 am
((Hugs)) for Sylvia. We all have those days. But I KNOW you”ll be pubbed. I won’t let you quit.
ANd Hurray For SYlia, for exceeding her daily goal!!
on November 2nd, 2004 at 12:35 am