I’m getting ready to dig into my copy edits. The first thing I do (out of curiosity) is go through the post-its that stick out the side. There are about half a dozen of them in the ASK FOR IT ms. No matter what they say, they make me cringe.
I’m going to make errors. That’s a given. But still, I hate that I make them. If a gown or eye color changes when it’s not supposed to, I mentally kick myself. How the hell did I do that? If I overuse something and it’s pointed out to me with a little, “Can we maybe have something else here?” I’m :doh: and :scratch: Why didn’t I catch that? And part of me wonders if the copy editor is sitting there saying to themselves, “Man, this chick sucks. Why the hell are they buying her books?” and that thought bothers me.
*sigh* My cp asks me often how it’s possible that I have such confidence issues. I’m selling stories I haven’t even thought up yet. (Unlike many authors, I don’t have a file of story ideas. I’m not an author who has endless premises to explore.) I replied the other day that I’m confident my work is salable, I just don’t know why it’s salable. I haven’t been writing long enough. Not that I’m complaining. No way in hell am I complaining. It’s just everything happened really fast. And I know none of this would be happening if I didn’t have the editors that I do. Out of all the editors I could’ve gotten, all the editors who would reject my stuff and think I’m not good enough, I ended up with editors who love my work. Sheer dumb luck.
I think that’s where the confidence comes into play. How do you feel confident about luck of the draw?